For ye were sometimes darkness, but now are ye light in the Lord: walk as children of light:(For the fruit of the Spirit is in all goodness and righteousness and truth;)Proving what is acceptable unto the Lord.– Ephesians 5:8-10
If we do not find ourselves in a near continual state of asking the Lord to shine His Holy cleansing Light into the depths and recesses of our hearts, minds, souls, and spirits- to create in us a clean heart; to renew a right spirit within us (Pslam 51:10)- we should be alarmed!
Alarmed, yes, deeply concerned, because this lack of connection with the ONLY one who can (and the One who longs to) wash us thoroughly of our iniquities and cleanse us of our sins (Psalm 51:2) is not showing itself strong! When we are strongly connected to Jesus, we crave His companionship which, in turn, makes us pleased to be examined by Him- no matter the darkness He reveals! The closer we are to Him the quicker we will seek to rid ourselves of these things that keep us from growing even closer in oneness and likeness to Him!
If He shows us that it is our selfish pride which is blocking our spiritual growth, our sanctification into Oneness with Him, we will pray for greater humility! We will make it our mission to submit! If it is fear keeping us from stepping out in faith, we will pray for increased belief on Him and will search the scriptures with greater fervency as a way to build our trust in Him knowing that faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God (Romans 10:17).
A true seeker will stop with making excuses and will make it their mission to surrender to the Truth! A true believer knows that Truth is found Only in Jesus Christ- a truth that is uncompromising!
If we find ourselves shrinking back from His sanctifying light, standing fearfully or defiantly in the shadows, we can be sure that there is a secret sin in us that we either are not willing to let go of or are in denial about! If we are unwilling to ask for Him to search us- if we find ourselves avoiding time alone with Him in prayer and neglecting fellowship with Him in the Bible. The question then becomes are we truly His? Whom do we truly wish to serve?